In this episode Jessica recounts January 17, the day after her 16-year-old son Colton died. She describes walking into a funeral home, planning a service, and the numb, mechanical way she completed the logistics of his passing.
The episode explores shock and survival mode — how grief can look like paperwork, decision-making, and quiet endurance — and ends with a reminder that there is no single right way to grieve.

On January 16, 2025, my 16-year-old son Colton was killed in an accidental shooting and his friend died by suicide. These episodes follow the first year after that day, drawn from journal entries, memories, and essays as I try to survive a grief I never imagined.
This podcast shares honest, unfiltered stories about the shock, isolation, and daily reality of losing a child—offering companionship to anyone grieving and a window into the invisible world carried by those who mourn.